decisions, decisions....

how do you decide what to do when you're faced with a situation? do you take the easiest route? do you take it to the face and just man up? or do you find something in between and hope that you can somehow find a crack and sneak your way through?

everyday we face situations where we have to make a choice... every moment we decide what we choose to do with our next hour, minute, second... what do we want to eat, do we want to eat, do we want something to drink while we eat, do we even wanna snack? those are the simple decisions because we just base that off how we feel...

but what do you do when you're faced with a decision where it's not as simple as just going with how you feel...? how do you weight out your choices? do you go by what feels good? do you go by what feels right? or do you just go by taking the easiest choice...? currently, i'm facing decisions that is killing me... work, life, ppl, they just dont stop throwing things at me... work is gay and puts me in a place where i hate... i'm working everyday, and yet i'm still broke as a joke... and to top it off, it's always sad to see that there's no where up to go from here... Life has decided to give me a sentence that i really dont feel is fair... but what can i do? what can i say? i can only complain but what good does that do? somehow fate has decided that my life will be this way, that my life will end this way, so all i can do is just bare with it...? how freakin fair is that? and just as if that's not enough, people.... the main source of almost all stress, simply because people are things that are out of your own hands... all you can do is control yourself, and pray that it's enough... but man i tell ya, sometimes the way ppl behave, the things they do, and the way it actually effects you is so unreasonable....

i think i know, scratch that... I KNOW what i need to do... but it's something that i'm not sure if i'm strong enough to do so.... i guess this is when ppl believe in god comes in handy because it's strength that you can borrow... so what about those of us who arent fortunate enough to find strength from someone up above? what if it feels like all the support from friends, families, are just not enough...? seriously now... what do you do when you know what to do but just cant do it?

either way... i know i have to make a decision soon... it's just a matter of how strong i can be.... for those of you that are reading... wish me luck and lend me ur strength....